“It was completely the closest I’ve ever gotten to not coming again to the present,” the longtime actuality star shared in a brand new interview — including that sure costars needed to “maintain me accountable for strolling out.”
Everybody wants a break, even a actuality TV professional like Kyle Richards.
In a brand new interview with The Hollywood Reporter, Richards shared why for the primary time in 14 seasons of The Actual Housewives of Beverly Hills, she wanted to step away from the cameras.
“I simply did not have it in me anymore. I used to be at a degree the place I used to be so depressed, frankly,” she informed THR of an upcoming episode, which is teased on the finish of Tuesday night time’s new hour. “I am not somebody who will get depressed. I’ve had anxiousness my total life however by no means despair. I actually felt like I used to be scuffling with despair and I expressed that. And I simply felt like I couldn’t go into eventualities on a regular basis and simply have everybody coming at me.”
Richards says when this occurred seven months in the past, she stepped away for a few week throughout manufacturing.
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Throughout that point away, Richards mirrored on whether or not or not she needed to return to the present. Whereas she in the end determined to stay on the hit Bravo franchise, that call was additionally difficult and got here, partly, as a result of her want to maintain busy amid a newly quiet house following her break up from ex Mauricio Umansky.
“It was completely the closest I’ve ever gotten to not coming again to the present. The present is quite a lot of strain as it’s, and I had a lot happening in my private life that was tough and painful,” she recalled. “I used to be like, ‘I do not actually understand how I can undergo a season coping with this.” We even have quite a lot of enjoyable on the present too, and I did not even know if I had it in me to do this.”
Richards continued, “I bear in mind coming house when Mau [Umansky] had first moved out and [their daughter] Alexia had simply moved out. It was like, ‘Oh my gosh, my home is so quiet.’ I am not used to that. It was a type of days the place nobody was there. This was going to be bizarre for me to have this new life of getting much less folks house, I believed. And, on prime of that, desirous to be busy and occupied. Regardless that I’m producing and doing different issues, the present takes up an unbelievable quantity of your time, and whereas that may be a foul factor at occasions, while you need to distract your self it is a good factor.”
“That was a part of it. Additionally, the individuals who I do the present with — the crew and manufacturing and the folks I’ve labored with for these final 16 years — are a giant a part of my life,” she added. “I felt like that was going to really feel like one other loss, and I did not know if I had that in me. So I actually needed to take time to course of all of that, and that was what in the end made me resolve.”

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Her fractured relationship with Dorit Kemsley additionally performed a task in her preliminary hesitation to return, telling THR that they’ve solely lately gotten to a very good place.
“It is like one step ahead, two steps again. However we did finally. We did go lately to a celebration at Kathy’s home [Hilton]. I simply needed it to get again to the place we have been,” she mentioned of her relationship with Dorit. “As a result of all I stored pondering is that we ought to be supporting one another now. We have gotten to this good place, why do now we have to do that once more?”
“We ought to be leaning on one another; we’re each going by way of a tough time,” she added of Dorit, who too separated from her husband, PK, final yr.
Whereas Richards mentioned she doesn’t remorse taking that step again from the present, she does remorse how she dealt with it within the second — which followers will see quickly in season 14.
“I regretted how I dealt with it, however not leaving. I simply did not have it in me anymore,” she mentioned. “Individuals I believed have been my associates, swiftly it felt like they weren’t. I simply felt prefer it was an excessive amount of with what was happening in my life and I believed, ‘Why would I topic myself to this? I do not know why I am persevering with to do that.'”

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Manufacturing revered Richards’ determination to not movie too, giving her the house she wanted throughout that week off.
“They know that I’ve by no means carried out that. In all these years, I’ve by no means known as in sick or not proven up for something ever; I’ve by no means canceled a shoot. So that they mentioned, ‘Take this time, I believe you want it, and we’ll reconvene while you’re feeling higher.’ I positively felt supported by the community and manufacturing, so I took that point till I felt sturdy once more and gathered my ideas at what I needed to do.”
Whereas she felt supported by manufacturing, that wasn’t precisely the case when it got here to her forged mates.
“There is a scene the place I did after which there have been some individuals who mentioned they have been going to carry me accountable for strolling out. And I used to be going to decide on to show the opposite approach on that one as a result of I did not need to undergo that once more,” Richards recounted. “I used to be getting a little bit stronger once I got here again after which as soon as I obtained previous that, I do not know if ‘supported’ could be the phrase, however I believe they understood.”

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As for what number of extra seasons Richards sees herself doing of the present, the Halloween actress mentioned that relies upon.
“I am not avoiding the reply, however I at all times say I by no means know as a result of it will depend on my private life emotionally — if I can deal with it, what my way of life is on the time,” the mom of 4 mentioned. “Who is aware of? I might take a look at this episode after we hold up and go, ‘I am not doing this anymore!’ You may catch me on a Wednesday scrolling by way of Instagram and I will go, “No! Why did I’ve to see that!” I’m positively in a stronger place than I used to be once I began final season, completely, and I am very grateful for that. My life is consistently altering proper now. Nevertheless it all relies upon the place I am at.”
She continued, “At some point, that day will come the place I will say, ‘OK, sufficient.’ I noticed one thing that mentioned, ‘If Kyle does one other season, 15 seasons, she’ll be the longest-running Housewife in franchise historical past.’ There’s form of part of me that wishes to have that! After which I am like, ‘For what, Kyle?! For what!'”
See all of the drama unfold on The Actual Housewives of Beverly Hills, airing Tuesdays at 8:00 p.m. ET on Bravo.